New To This

Since getting into this wonderful thing called a relationship, I've gained hmm... a few pounds.  Of course everyone says I look alright, but I don't feel alright.  I don't want to get any bigger and I don't want diabetes.  Ok.  A little extreme but hey, it could happen.  I'm trying to do things to lose weight...like exercise, which has always been a part of my life but eating right is the thing I have the most trouble.  I don't eat terribly...I just eat way too much of whatever I'm eating.  Then I feel sick.  Then I can't work out for hours cause of that sick feeling.  Its a vicious cycle.

Exercise.  I do it.  It's doable.  I just can't get myself to do strength training, which I need the most.  I'd rather go jogging for an hour than lift weights and tighten my ass.  That's something else I need to work on.  Maybe start a "To Do" list with things that need to be done that day, also so I can have that orgasmic liberating feeling of scratching things off my list when they are finished.

Now, I am going to try and eat less.  Small portions. PORTION CONTROL!!!! Well, maybe drink more water, then eat food, drink water while I'm eating food, and hopefully that'll fill me up.  I have a tendency to not drink my liquids while eating.  Then, when I'm done eating I drink a ton of water and then I feel sick.  Like right now.

I do have the occasional cupcake with the gals but other than that I'm eating the right foods, just too much of it.

Yes.