New Achievements

Okay, I have to admit, I was jealous that both the previous blog posts tittles started with 'new'. I wanted to fit in. Although today's blog is about an achievement, so I'm not lying. I was planning on posting some motivational post but I've got something better. First, let me take you back to December2011 and set the stage.

It was December 26, 2011 as I stepped on the scale and saw I was .5lbs away from being the heaviest I'd ever been again. Looking back, I have no idea why I thought it would be a good idea to weight myself right after all the big holiday meals. I'm not usually that thoughtless, okay, maybe I am. That's irrelevant right now. Back to the scale,I stood there horrified, I had sworn I would never let myself get back there. Yet, there I was, back to square one. Back to the yo-yoing. Back to old, dangerous habits. Back to being unhappy and cranky.

Right there and then I decided to take charge and make a change. Not only to get back into shape, but I would stop this yo-yo effect I was putting on my body. It's not healthy, it's not sane, and (let's be honest) it's not cheap to replace clothes all the time. It wasn't meant to be a New Year's resolution, it was just a resolution, or a promise.

Since then I've lost 30 lbs and have gotten my running back up to 3 miles. Those are nice accomplishments and I'm proud of them. However, today came the real breakthrough, I was looking in the mirror during Body Pump class and I liked loved the reflection staring back at me. Now let's get one thing straight, I'm not at my goal yet and I don't look like Heidi Klum, not even in my best dream on my best day. Still, today I didn't look away from the mirror, I didn't mentally insult some part of my body, I smiled. I finally felt content and happy in my skin, for the first time in a very long time.

Then I hit myself in the head with my bar full of weights. I'm smooth like that. That's what I get for staring at myself during a work out.

I've still got a ways to go and new goals to reach. I signed up for a half marathon in December and I've got more weight to lose. But today, I win the self esteem battle. Today, I'm happy.